There are times in life, when not just you give up, but also gives up your self respect, the adrenaline rush you had, the madness you had for someone, the vision you saw the world with, the feeling which you once felt.
So did she. She was now devoid of all the feelings she once had. She now felt nothing. It's like life had an impromptu joke on her. All she had a feeling of laughing at her own self. "Shut up! People do go through this everytime. You are not the only one, you Idiot!" she said to herself.
She decided to head forward after gallons of tears which she finally stopped. She went aloof of all the things which could remind her of him. Facebook, Whatsapp, Twitter, and any other social network. She did not listen to any songs, because all she could hear, see, comprehend, pretend was him. A man she loved the most, the man for whom she could leave everything and be with.
True, how long could living miles away match up when every thing went awry. How could one person not see her anytime and still be madly in love. She thought practically still believing that, "Yes, I can live with the memories forever, and also to the fact that he still loves me."
So she got up, thought that she would go and catch up a movie, coz at some point this all has to stop.
She went in but all she saw was that every second and milisecond of the movie, shouted her story. her present, her past. She was numb. She didn't speak a word. Soon when it got over, she stood up, thinking that nothing happened to her. But, I saw. I saw her fall. Fall in the very first step and falling five stairs away. All I saw blood gushing out of her head, but she was non-reactive. All she had was a blank face. While others were making fun of her total opposite reaction, I thought that she must be taken to the hospital. I took the nearest hospital, where I got to know this is what she was going through.
She was already one hand broken, and totally heart broken. A repair, no medicine could do.
So did she. She was now devoid of all the feelings she once had. She now felt nothing. It's like life had an impromptu joke on her. All she had a feeling of laughing at her own self. "Shut up! People do go through this everytime. You are not the only one, you Idiot!" she said to herself.
She decided to head forward after gallons of tears which she finally stopped. She went aloof of all the things which could remind her of him. Facebook, Whatsapp, Twitter, and any other social network. She did not listen to any songs, because all she could hear, see, comprehend, pretend was him. A man she loved the most, the man for whom she could leave everything and be with.
True, how long could living miles away match up when every thing went awry. How could one person not see her anytime and still be madly in love. She thought practically still believing that, "Yes, I can live with the memories forever, and also to the fact that he still loves me."
So she got up, thought that she would go and catch up a movie, coz at some point this all has to stop.
She went in but all she saw was that every second and milisecond of the movie, shouted her story. her present, her past. She was numb. She didn't speak a word. Soon when it got over, she stood up, thinking that nothing happened to her. But, I saw. I saw her fall. Fall in the very first step and falling five stairs away. All I saw blood gushing out of her head, but she was non-reactive. All she had was a blank face. While others were making fun of her total opposite reaction, I thought that she must be taken to the hospital. I took the nearest hospital, where I got to know this is what she was going through.
She was already one hand broken, and totally heart broken. A repair, no medicine could do.
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