There are few people in this world, who cannot cry. At any painful circumstances, they just cannot reveal their sorrow to anyone. They hide it all beneath them, under them, and bear it all along with them all their life. They will never share it with anyone. No one will know about it even after they rest in peace in their grave.

I don't know. I don't know whether that makes you strong or not. Whether it makes the person, rough, tough and hard to handle type. But I can assure. Just one trigger on emotions, and you can see the person breaking down.

It feels choked. These people can actually feel the pain. A pain so severe, that no one can understand. No one will be able to comprehend.

A few days earlier, I saw a video of an eagle. Eagle's life span is of 70 years. After it is 40, it goes through a massive change. They hit their beaks hard on a mountain and it comes off. Then they break their talons. When the new and sharp beak grows back, they pull their feathers out. After this gruesome and cruel change. They get themselves back!

I think we humans also change ourselves through these changes. We change ourselves completely, break our our hopes, pull out our emotions, wear out our wings of emotions. And just wait for a new flight!

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
As they turn your dream to shame

He slept a summer by my side
He filled my days with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came

And still I dream he'll come to me
That we will live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed.


Les Miserable lyrics, now ringing in my ears. Sharp, and shrieking voice of Idina Menzel and Lea Michelle, describing me in their melodious voice. But all of a sudden, these hurt me!!

There are times when you think things can never go wrong. And even if they do, you have the touch of Midas. You can turn tables. Live what you dreamed of, coz comes one person in your life, whi makes you feel what you are worth! What your potentials are, what good things you have in you.

But at the end of the day, you realise, Midas was ust some Greek story, it is not reality, and will never be. You are human after all. You can't do anything, but follow what destiny has in store for you. You realise that you cannot turn tables, but they instead will turn you.

So much, that you lose yourself, you lose hope, you lose faith, you are so down that you can never get up. Your dreams crash, you keep falling under the extreme deep pithole. A never ending one. You don't know where you are, you don't know where you are going, where life is taking you along. You just follow the path which you can see right in front of you.

I don't know where I am, I don't know where I am about to go, what life has in store for me. But all I am is one with nothing in me.

I am going through a change. A complete one. Totally something which is off me, which is not me. And the worst part is I cannot stop it by myself!!

But in the end, the one who has made the deepest and darkest and sweetest memories, will always and forever will remain a hero for you. You cannot stop being with them. Coz the memories on which you smiled once, which made your day, haunts you every second of your life.

You cannot sleep, you cannot eat, you cannot think, you cannot talk. All you have is one blog and few words in english which falls short too.

These are few feelings which are left unsaid. Unspoken, unheard. And maybe you can never will.

NEVER!!

I have very few REAL friends. By REAL I mean those, who think about me, love me, and think me to be a wonderful part of their life.

I have this one friend, who loves me to the fullest, adores me, listens to all my rants, fights with those who hurt me, gives me frequent treats, caters to all my needs.

I have this another friend, who pulls my leg untill I am fed up, but will ensure that no one hurts me.

And I have another childhood friend, with whom I lost contact for almost about 12 years, but the time since we got back.. Life has taken an amazing turn.

Other than my mother, my life revolves around these amazing people. They are the people who have the most amazing qualities in them. One can understand my feelings even before I do, one makes sure I laugh my heart out even in my harshest time, and the other makes me feel special and makes me feel good.

I wont name anyone of them ( I don't want to die so soon :P)

In these three people, the first two are my girlfriends..

Many sick minded people questioned me, how can a girl like you be friends with them?

I know what I am and I know what they are. We are not drop dead gorgeous, we are not super rich, we are not the ones who takes pouty pictures in almost everything. We are WE..
Thats what makes us what we are today, free spirited, liberal, and we have the judgment to know what wrong or what is right.

The third one, a guy of course, is what I call a miracle in my life. A few years before we had no idea whether we will be together or not, stay together or not. And now we are inseperable. We cannot stay away, we fight, we laugh, we joke, we cry, we break down, we annoy each other. But we can never stay apart.
He made me feel that I am good too. I can be good, I have something in me. Has been with me and supported me all the way even when I lost hope in myself. He a lot of times made me feel to kick his ass, but also made me realise how incomplete was I without him.

Well, why am I mentioning them? Well, its a blog of free opinions. It is a place where you want to share what you feel, and going out of High School makes me feel that it is the apocalypse.

So a tribute to those who made it a pleasure is worth a job!

In the end all I want to say is ALL WE NEED IS TIME TO KNOW WHO ARE TRUE FOR US. WHO WANTS US AND WHO CAN YOU BE WITH. FRIENDSHIP AND LOVE IS ALL LIKE A STORE. YOU HAVE MILLION THINGS TO CHOOSE BUT ONLY SOME SATISFY YOU.
#That was lame

But still, it is true....
 

Lets get away from the serious issues and concentrate on something which is more general and all of us can relate to.

For the past few days, after the farewell of my school, some juniors have been trying to share a good bond with me. One of this junior whom I never saw, and who is way younger to me, said 'Hi' and the very next thing she said was, "Do you know any ways to lose weight, or diet????"

I was shocked! Not because I haven't heard what dieting is, but because of the fact that a twelve year old girl, asked me about methods of dieting, where in fact what she should think about her life, cute guys, and other things than looking down upon herself.

When I was twelve, I remember, I was fat. I mean I am still fat.

I never thought of dieting, or thinking that nobody likes me because I look ugly!
I had a good life. A friend very supportive, a family supportive enough. I was sixteen when I had concerns on my weight, and that happened because I had a massive crush on a guy, who was a school hot property. Soon that charm went off my mind. And I realised there will be someone.

Someone who will love you not for your exterior qualities, but what you have inside. Someone who will say, "Yeah! I am here to protect you!"
"You are beautiful just the way you are!"
"Screw everyone who made you feel low! I will make sure they feel even more lower!"

NOT JUST FOR GIRLS!

I have also seen boys who feel low because they thinnk they are going to die alone. They change themselves to the extent that they forget who they really are! They become cheezy for a hottie, nerd for a girl next door, turn dawn into dusk if the girl says so.

What a girl wants is just you to be you. No pretence.
If you are a jerk, be one! Coz there is always someone who desperately wants you in her life too...

Well, for every girl, there is no prince charming, the one who will sweep you away on a horse, in a tuxedo. But there is something even better.

Someone who will propose you in such a way that its simple, maybe crazy, but will touch your heart so much, that you will be bound to say, "Yes! I have got the one for me!"
Someone out there will accept the way you are, he will fight, be crazy, pamper you, make you feel what you're worth!!!! Just you should not be hesitant to express yourself well.....

All you need is patience!

 

Now let me tell you something weird about our society now.

Today early in the morning, my Mother read out an article on her favourite actor Kamal Hassan, which said he got married to his then wife Sarika when his daughters were already born.

Nobody protested against them. Nobody uttered a word of disgust. Then why pressurise those who are not into the world of glitz and glamour?

The woman and the man who decide to have a child before marriage are quite self sufficient and are adults. Then who are we to accuse them of something? They pay their own expenses and also bear that of the child born quite well. Then why the hell do you have to bother about it.

There are successful cases of single parenting. Barbara Mori, Sushmita Sen, and many more..
But why does the thing is only accused on someone when they are not a celebrity.

Apart from this issue, even celebrities are not safe. If Aishwarya Rai got pregnant, then who are you to speculate the name of the newborn? Every woman has the right to raise a kid. If she has got post pregnancy fat, then its so normal people!!!

Who are you to judge that! I saw posts on facebook, ridiculing and comparing Aishwarya's weight in terms of 2G, 3G!

I mean heights of cheap mentality people!!!
Its time we change our thinking in this time of mordernisation!!!!!!

I am not much of a feminist. But with increasing crime rates going on in my country, apart from that the whole world, I am really scared of being a woman!

I am a teenager and I am always being forced upon the fact that reading newspapers and beingin touch with the current affairs is important. But seriously, every page atleast has two to three articles on women exploitation and crime.

Either here or abroad, in every thirty seconds there is atleast one rape, in every twenty minutes an act of cruelty.

Are we living in a world? And I definitely know the apple of sin is utter rubbish which was planned by Lucifer in the early Theology or Mythologhy whatever you call it.

Are we not liberal enough to even let women wear what they want, roam where they want to. I mean if you are so nymphomaniac, then you literally have legal prostitutions..
Why kill an innocent girl brutally in a bus just to satisfy your sexual needs.
If you really want money, tell your wife to work, get money and live a happy life. Why ask for dowry?
If you want to beat someone up, Dude! Fight with real men and with those who deserve it!
FOR MEN, have you ever wondered that you would not be born if we weren't there!!!
You wouldn't have a good life without us. You wouldn't see the world without us!!!!