Puff, Exhale, Rewind...

A kick in the heart,
And a puff did it all.
The smoke, as it rose higher,
I saw the smile.

The smile I dreaded the most,
The smile my heart skipped a beat at.
I didn't just see it, 
I saw the almighty place the smile in front of me.

Exhale it all!
I thought it went down with the gravity!
The pain, the smile, the big brown eyes...
Instead, stood in front of me, as my head turned round.

One.. a puff.. Two.. a puff
A puff again and it's three.
Tap it again, and there goes the ash into the drain.
As it falls, I see him fall for me all over again.

I look up to the sky,
Feel my throat twitching as it goes in,
My nose fills up with a stinging memories.
And I see him walking towards me.

A rush in the head, a swing on the feet.
As I fall, I felt his arm.
The marks of several scratches on her wrist.
Hurt no more.

In a puff,
I realised being the real me was more painful.
In a puff,
I SAW where my life had a stop.