Defying Black Hole

Sitting is a girl who I knew once.

Filled with the power of a nebula.

Pixie dust and sparkles were along with her.

Her smile felt like her savior.

Guarding her, from herself.

But as I see her now,

She sits there alone with five others.

She hears no one as she nods.

She sweats as the monsoon arrives.

She freezes as the summer approaches.

Her once sparkling eyes,
Now lie still, into the blank space.

Shining through the armour
She thought there would be someone.
Breaking through the sheets of iron and rust.
She saw through her camouflage of pixie dust.
An illusion of happily ever after.

Hoping to depend on someone hopelessly.
Who am I to blame her?
Aren't we all taught to live that way?
Aren't we taught to slay?
Slay our dreams, hopes, efforts to depend on someone?

But yet, she tried her best to get the wings.
She wanted to feel what magic her pixie dust and wings,
Together did. 
Tired and wired with what she had,
She felt ruined too easy.

This went on for a month or two.
I tried to help her 
But it wasn't something anyone could do.

When magically she appeared with wings.
Sparkling dust again encircled her.
She came out of the empty space.
She, for once, defied the falling into the black hole.
But when I saw her jump out of it.
I saw her become a star again.
The brightest, the toughest, the fittest.

My I, Wasn't WE Before!

My childish whims,
Your childish smile.
My obsession with you,
And your eyes, your deep brown eyes like the sky.
Infinite, endless, filled with dreams and hopes,
And love.

My scars, my pain, my sorrow, my name!
I forgot it all with just a touch.
A touch so deep and divine,
Which I could be eternally gratified for.

Slowly swirling, from cheeks to the neck.
Your fingers ran a spark in every second.
In me, my soul, my dreams, all ignited.
Your eyes, through the glasses,
Broke all the chains I was tied up to,
And made me someone I wanted to be.

How did you know that I was here?
How did you realise that you were all I ever wanted?
How did you finally fit into the sea of jigsaw puzzles?
How did you see through me and made me yours forever?
Where were you all this while?

I fly the flight I never flew, with you.
I swim the oceans happy, in which once I dreaded to be in.
I now will fight as I now know the light is you.
I will now fill up the holes as my heart is you.
I don't have to hunt anymore as my search is over.

I have never been in so much love before.
I haven't been felt so secure before.
I have never been loved before.
My life hasn't been magical before.
I have never been ME before!

My, I wasn't WE before!

Puff, Exhale, Rewind...

A kick in the heart,
And a puff did it all.
The smoke, as it rose higher,
I saw the smile.

The smile I dreaded the most,
The smile my heart skipped a beat at.
I didn't just see it, 
I saw the almighty place the smile in front of me.

Exhale it all!
I thought it went down with the gravity!
The pain, the smile, the big brown eyes...
Instead, stood in front of me, as my head turned round.

One.. a puff.. Two.. a puff
A puff again and it's three.
Tap it again, and there goes the ash into the drain.
As it falls, I see him fall for me all over again.

I look up to the sky,
Feel my throat twitching as it goes in,
My nose fills up with a stinging memories.
And I see him walking towards me.

A rush in the head, a swing on the feet.
As I fall, I felt his arm.
The marks of several scratches on her wrist.
Hurt no more.

In a puff,
I realised being the real me was more painful.
In a puff,
I SAW where my life had a stop.